Having a VIP day with Jo has helped to deal with all the ugly truths from the past that came flooding back after I lost my husband of 18 years, my childhood sweetheart whom I met when I was 14 years old, to complications caused by the cancer treatments on December 18, 2012. I was 37 years old when he passed away leaving my 8 year old and I with such a void. The strong feelings of hurt felt from grief that was just unimaginable and painful, a hurt that couldn’t be easily fixed or pushed aside. The loss of someone so close, who played such an important everyday role in our lives, has been incredibly difficult to get passed. Day to day life was hard enough to deal with, much less the holidays. From his birthday in October to January, they were months that were just a whirlwind of blurred days filled with every raw emotion that left me angry and depressed. I dreaded the holiday season. I did what I knew I should so my son could have good memories but I did not feel the joy or wonder that typically came with Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and the New Year. But I faked it well enough to put that smile on my son’s face.
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Jo was there the whole way. She promised she would not let me suffer alone and she did keep her word. True happiness is what my late husband wanted for me as well as my son. I finally see that possibility. I whole heartily recommend others to just take the bull by its horns and face those inner monsters that can keep from peace and happiness. Jo will be there every step of the way. Me, for the first time in 6 years I don’t hate Christmas. I am ok and ready to celebrate. Good luck to all those on their journey to finding what they are looking for.